A FAIRY TALE: COME IN A LITTLE WHILE O MY FAIRY! WRITTEN BY ASIF SULTAN MATTA.

  Come In A Little While O My Fairy!                                                                                                                                                                                 ASIF SULTAN,

                                                                                                                                                          Beneath the open sky,

                                                                                                       On the Parapet, at Bemina.

                                                                                                                                                              During the Night,

                                                                                                                                                                 12^th june 2013.

Once upon a time I was travelling in a bus coming back from my office to my home. I was so worn out by my usual wearisome work. I used to be so anguished and was feeling solitary, impotent and was so wretched. I was feeling out of love and affection and was thirsty for it; nobody was there who could stand shoulder to shoulder with me and could palliate my wounds in my heart, I was thinking and was obsessed with it too much. In the meantime, somebody called me in a very sweet and heart-touching voice, Asif! Aaaseef! Asif! Aaaseef! I was gasped and then I roamed my eyes here and there, but no one appeared. I re-commenced thinking about my anguish and was absorbed in it…again, after a moment someone uttered “Aaaseef! Aaseef”! I was again startled and was shivered… I swiftly saw towards the window and I found an astonishing ravishing Fairy, having prominent glittery eyes, bewitching long hair, striking rosy lips and having a sweet mesmerizing dimple on her cheek. I was completely enthralled by her fetching prettiness, as she was extraordinary gorgeous. I thought, “Am not I in dream?” so I rubbed my eyes, shook my head and looked again. But I still found her nearby. Her beauty made me engrossed in her for a very long time. I had been staring at her since I saw her; on the spur of the moment, she gripped me and took me away with her, flying. I was extremely afraid when I saw that I am floating over the huge clouds and sky is so near to me; in fact I was made the sky. Mountains were looking like small hills; and hills like pebbles. Houses were seemed to be minute boxes on the floor. In short, everything on the earth was looking so tiny and inferior. I was really extremely scared and thought my soul is being taken back to heavens and my body has given up the soul. After sometime she observed that I am exceedingly terrified, so she stopped flying; and we stayed on the moon and she told me, “Don’t fret- you are alive! I am just your sympathizer and I came to fulfill that about what you were obsessed, i.e. to love and to care you. I came to make you cheerful”. “I am also sailing in the same boat, as I am also aspiring of love for what I have been sent to you”, she added... I asked hesitantly, “Why you are going to do such favors for me?” She replied, pleasantly, “I also need your care and love, as I am underprivileged from it since my early days. And I found you the only, who is much loving, caring and understanding, that’s why I came to you my dear”. I smiled gleefully and thought, am I so, what she said or am cajoled? Whatever I am, she is aspiring of love,” I considered sympathetically. Her eyes were brimmed with tears while revealing all of her agony before me. I become emotional and a deep reverence, sympathy and love was emerged in my heart for her, as she stated her pain and afflictions, emotionally. Although she was stranger for me but I couldn’t refuse her proposal and I followed the feelings of my emotional heart, blindly.

     Achha hai Dil ke sath rahe paasbaani Aql,

     Lekin kabhi kabhi isay tanha bhi chhod de…

 “It is better that the heart be guarded by the intellect,

  But leave it sometimes alone to itself.”  

Likewise, I left my unruly heart alone to itself, and I permitted it what It wished to do..

After awhile she holds my hand firmly and flies again… flies so nicely…she was fluttering her beautiful wings like a pretty bird. I feared, as I was ascending upwards! She encourages me and says some  couplets for me with her sweet and angelic voice,

“Don’t   be    sad!     Don’t    be sad!

 I am with you, you should be glad.

                        I changed my mood, why don’t you?

                        Don’t  be sad I  am  really  with you.

             The gloom has been gone and the glow came.

            To care and to love you, that is  my only aim.

                      I shall  always be  with  you.  I  won’t let you go

                     Blue skies and green gardens I am going to show-

                  I   got   elated   as   have  been   ever  such,

                           The way she loved, it was for me very much.

                              The way of her talking  really tickles  my eyes.

                             My spirit and my morale, everything she rises.

                     I   couldn’t   judge, am  I on right  path or went astray,

                   The only thing, I did, was submission to my heart’s way.

She showed me the magnificent, wonderful and eye-catching things. She took me to a large and a beautiful garden which I have ever seen. I couldn’t even envisage before such a fantastic garden, which I was shown there. I asked her surprisingly, “What is this?”  She replied, “it’s all for you my dear”. Then she offered me many provisions to eat, and showed me the entire garden. The garden was so large in size; I was unable to see the confines of that garden. Its grass was purely green and flat, like the clean green carpet laid on the earth. There were trees of every kind of fruit, some of them were so tall and some were short. In the midst of it there was an enormous amazing fountain, which was shedding multi-coloured shiny water. It added more adornment to that miraculous garden. The garden was surrounded by the huge Dates trees; it was looking like the wall of green bricks. She holds my hand and takes me towards the fence of dates trees. I thought she went to pluck some dates for me to eat. But since she touched the trees, an arboreal gate appeared by the trees and she opens it. There was a very beautiful palace of pure crystal. It was glimmering like the glowing sun, was looking so fragile but was not so. She invited me there and said it is for us and we will abide here forever. The yard of that palace was obscured by the beautiful groovy flowers. The aroma of them was spread far and wide. I was fascinated by everything, which I saw and felt there. I enjoyed the moment with her in that palace because I wanted to eliminate her isolation and adversity; and make her happy. To adore and to make her glad I used many ways, sometimes I jested, and sometimes I laughed; even sometimes I  used to scold her.  Sometimes I used to get emotional and sometimes angry with her on petty things, that’s why she used to call me, “Che Kotah Vadvun Chhukh!” meaning, “How peevish you are!” and when I used to get angry she would usually appease me by saying these beautiful emotive words pleasantly, “Karo Na Meri Jaan Mood Theek”. Then I used to smile with tears and would found no option but to reconcile. The way of her memorable appeasement I really like most.

During that tryst, we gossiped and relished so much.   We walked together for miles. She showed me many amazing things, which I can never forget. She engraved love and sympathy upon my heart. She became the comfort to my eyes, and she soothed my down-trodden heart and consoled to my dejected soul. I thought that I will never depart from her at that time but since I thought, she intimated that we have to part. I thought that from everything I have been deprived, as she talked about parting. I insisted her to be with me forever like a badgering child, as I fell in a deep admiration and compassion with her and liked her behavior so much, but the time of her departure had been reached, and she flew, so heartbreaking for me! But before she could leave, she dropped me at my home and assured that she will come very soon and will be with me forever and took promise from me that I should never forsake her.  Fee Amaanillah!

Since her departure, I usually meet with her in dreams and talk with her for very long, but am not satiated. She has really made a deep place for her in my innocent heart. No doubt, I was already feeling lonely and sad before the meeting with her, but after that meeting, I feel much loneliness and grief in me than before. In fact, I was previously obsessed with my distress and problems, but since I met with her to mitigate my depression I become much depressed in isolation without her and I forgot my previous agony; and new one has aroused.

“Kaide hayaat bandi gham dono asel me aik hai,

Maut se pehle aadmi gham se najaat paaye kyun.”

&

“Marz badhta gaya juun juun dava ki”

 I keenly wait for the fulfillment of her promise and mine too that we will be with each other forever. Whenever it crosses my mind I murmur in an emotional way,

           Come   in  a   little  while  O  my   Fairy,

           To live with you I am waiting so eagerly

                                              Come in a little while O my fairy.

           Though I was obsessed with it very before,

           But now,  I  feel  sorrow  more  and  more.

                                              Since     you   left   me   I am very doleful,

                                             Whatever you showed was very wonderful

         While sitting, standing and lying I feel you,

        To  be  alive  exclusive  of  you,  I  can’t  do,

                                             Your appeasement your talking I miss a lot,

                                             You      might   forget   me   but   I   cannot;

             Come   in  a   little while O Dear Fairy,

           To live with you I am waiting so eagerly.

                                                                                                            ASIF SULTAN MATTA

          

This is only an imagination of something that is but a reality..